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The War On Drugs - Under The Pressure (Glastonbury 2023)

Radiohead - Paranoid Android (Later Archive 1997)

Sue

Strange Appalachian concoctions born from deep poverty combined with genetic dumb luck pulled her up to the American stage. She laughed much later while telling AIDS jokes as her son's best friend succombed to its serial horrors, designing dinner presentations to nourish those bodies of her immediates that she sometimes loved unimaginably. I was told how she walked to the creek with her most beloved son and flipped rocks for crustacians and amphibians in summer below the covered bridge at Bawcress Farm like she did before being called up from the rusty junk dumped by hollowbillies back home. She deeply and differently loved and despised all but one or two of her immediates, declaring once, "be careful Greg, he's a good shot," but wanted the absolute best for them all with little regard for the hierarchy she created over time. All things to all people she was. But many of those things were soaked in sincere affection for the lucky ones who held her acute attention at the time. And all the while, she was constantly on the run, like the terrified bats out of hell, from brown eggs and the waft of warm morning coal from the front room back home that she hated until she went back for visits.

Beyond The Fray Cassandra Violet

Bruce Springstein - I'm on Fire (Anthem for the Chimp Brain)

Chimp-Brain men have no self control and pose a threat of child sexual predation. This very strange, yet beautiful song dives right into the subject and creates a dark anthem to those dangerous men. I observed the young women in the crowd singing along with Springstein and once again I'm left puzzeled by it all.

Not So Sure

I'm not at all so sure that surely goodness and mercy shall follow anyone all the days of their lives. And who really wants to dwell?

Christians Hate This New Testament Contradiction! -Rabbi Tovia Singer

Thelonious Monk - Rhythm-A-Ning (Brussels, 1963)

That Parole Hearing That Morning

Shadowy solutions flank all problems. I remember waking early one morning with intense, crushing melancholy bearing down, nearly pinning me to the ground, in the midst of which was my obligation to drive to MCCX in Wartburg to provide assistaance to my cient who was up for parole. I recall the pain that throbbed as I was compelled to look at the interstate ahead en route, even through dark glasses and a tinted windscreen, whilst I suffered. Suffering in motion dynamic. I arrived at the reception area and met with my client's sister who immediately detected the prominence of my my heavy burden despite my weak attempt to hide it. But I got to work, which has always landed temporary redemption. After the presentation of my suggestions for the kind of structured home plan that I knew from experience the hearing officer would appreicate, and the "acceptance of responsibility utterd during my client's testimony, it became time for my summation. I remember closing my eyes and and allowing my suffering to set loose. The acute truth that emanated from my mouthpiece, which my memory still refuses to record, drew silent shock and awe from the prison staff and all the others, I was told such that when I opened my eyes I immediatly knew that the almost otherworldly honesty that drove my words had been very well received, with one guard commenting something about "straight from the heart." I felt so goddamned awful that day and look what happened. I did not recover until later, as is the routine of my chronic burden. But, for a moment, I hit the fucking thing out of the goddammed park. So it is true that both the rod and the staff can indeed comfort. I shall not want. All my wants, spat out, jettisoned into space, made all the difference. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days I have left of my life, but they won't, and that's okay, too. Breathe, my child, it will all be okay, until it's not again.