Didn't people die every day that you did whatever it was that you did before the day that you died? All while the uncomfortable truth emerged and whispered that you made no good goddamn difference, while the others stress to burnish into new time the lie that says that even that has got to stand good for something, even if, in truth, it was good for absolutely nothing.
Thursday, April 14, 2022
Radiohead - I Froze Up [Unreleased]
The dissonant chordwork worms its way inside my shirt, encircles my chest, and finds an opening in the solar plexus so the adventure can begin inside the enormous head of my man. I actually "froze up" two years and four days ago. My brother called and told me that our mother had died after a 14 year experience with dementia and wasting. I was sitting in an old rocking chair in Paul's old room upstairs. I froze up. I lost sight of everything except the absolutely stunng news that my mother had died. I had to wait and actually earn the slow thaw that would come, but would take it's goddamned time about it. I'm still frozen deep inside the solar plexus, where the dissonate chords worm their way around, aimlessly, once they reach their destination. A mother is a hell of a thing to lose.