What Shapes Us

The conditios that have arisen in our lives, regardless of their provenance, effectively shape our perception of things, creating all angles of view, from hard left all the way through the vagaries in the middle to hard right. Our countenance is oftentimes made hard, even mean. But beneath that, might lay intense compassion and empathy, especially toward kindred victims of like damage, self inflicted or not.

The Universe Inside

I was up before first light, first ensuring that the hallmark above my mind was secure, and it was. Deeply etched was the word, Faith, above it, standing sentinal. Faith in myself and, if I stay three-treasures fit, complete faith in the Way. Realizing first as I concentrated on my diaphram, that one can absorb the sutras, like speed reading. Samadal, sutral, mindful concentration, feet first, then floating slowly upward through my bones, muscles, gelatanous pipes and cables. Anatomical identification scores the rising scan of my body. I realized that my sentience was the mudroom into the house of Samsaral craving. I, too, understood that the wonder of my body coalesced, not into the hard and soft hardware and software within, but into point where there is singularity, like your God Almighty. The point at which I'm free to extrapolate the magic of my joint and several body outward into the holes of space, absorbing the sutras and dharma abstractly without reading a word.

Michael Brecker Quartet🔝🔝 Terrassa Jazz Festival 1999 Part 1

Nandina ice

Once You Turn 60,The Only Reliable Support Is Not Family, But These 5 Pi...

Appalachian American Ennui and Antinatalism

A man who lives in the next county over, and who does not even know that he is part Jewish, has taught his eight year old granddaughter the Nazi Seig Heil salute. Her mother is the eye witness and can do nothing about it because her production of offspring has hemmed her in to her the monster's home where she is stuck. Antinatalism should be taught in the schools. "Motherhood mean mental freeze." And I just learned that the ruining child called a little boy a monkey because of his race. The man in the next county over is grooming another monster in his trumpian image. This is AAE at it's worst. This is the rule, not the exception, in these Clinch mountains that lean in order to hide these snug pockets of sadness from the rest of most of us.

Miss Wallace, rethinking her career path

My Brother by Another Mother - Michael Paul Smith - Ain't No Sunshine When She's Gone; and I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry

The link to his music appears below his picture. https://www.bandmix.com/michael-p-smith/

Michael Paul Smith: Fast Forward

My heart breaks for you, Michael.  When I look at this picture of you, my eyes try to play tricks on me.  They conspire with my consciousness to create the ostensible lie that whispers to me that you're always sad, constantly depressed, and steeped in continuous loathing, all based upon this almost incomprehensible visage of the countenance that prison has heaped upon you.  I have to remind myself that you probably smile, or laugh even, and that this photograph is a spark that was pitifully, sadly captured nanoseconds before you grinned out its proper opposite. I've heard the joy of prisoners as they discuss their retarded anecdotes, while coughing out loud.  It's what J.D. Salinger meant when he wrote of  the rocking back and forth "between the grief and the high delight."  I, too, am intimately familiar with both extremes, one more than the other. So we share that, and a cruel father and that's about it.

BETWEEN THE TEMPLES | Official Trailer (2024)

Check all the boxes. This is a great movie. Well done.

The Law is a Hateful Thing.

Ida Miller nailed it when she uttered these sage words: "Paul, the practice of law must be a hateful thing." Indeed it is, Ida Miller. I suppose that I inadvertently taught her this truth, which condensed this awful reality. It's no coincidence that she uttered the maxim when she did, like synchronicity in real time, because my recent experiences with my practice drew out hordes of hatred in me. Yes, I was successful, but this time I actually harmed another human being in obtaining my client's desired result. Her arresting officer was a young woman whose dream had been realized when she got her badge. I saw the bodycam and dashcam of her going out the arrest of my client, and, quite honestly, she did everything by the book. She was compassionate in the process of detaining my very troubled client. This is the exception. Please know that. Jenna worked her case like new recruits normally do; everything by the book. In fact, this was her first arrest. And well done it was. So my job began when I was retained. The matter lingered on the docket for months and months, as is the norm. We had hearings. Motions. I even retained the serives of an expert witness from the University of Tennessee. Our trial date was set. November 8, 2924, which was yesterday. During the course of my representation I was told that my victim had earlier been forced to resign her position as a police officer. With trial approaching, I did what I am actually required to do as directed by the sixth amendment to the constituion, and its state counterpart. To provide "effective" assistance of counsel. So I filed motions to reveal the undergirding reasons Jenna was forced to resign, and I subpoenaed her personnel file as well as herself. I was agressive through the agency of pure exploitation of the perceived weakness that I now saw in the State's case. As I am now old, this conduct on my part in pursuit of my practice bites very deeply into my conscience. I used to feeel practically nothing when engaging in similar strategies. But, in this case, which ultimately resolved to my client's satisfaction on account of the harm I did to this young lady in putting her in fear of having to testify about the mistake that cost her career, I got sick. I am still sick. Physically, I my stomach has revolted against me. I can barely eat now. And mentally, I have lost much of what I had gained in overcoming depression. I deserve this hell that has now had hold of me for a week now. My mind an body have revolted against me. I am sick and I ought to be sick. I think I should see this as a warning. So many criminal defense attorneys drink this away, or worse. I see it in their elderly faces when they come to court bloated and red. I honestly feel like I would welcome returning to the earth, but that is not up to me, so I suffer. Suffering is baked in to this life, and my time has come again to suffer and am left exsanguinated. I take solace in the justice that it has brought to the fore. I want the world to be underpinned with broad justice, so maybe this is evidende of that. I do thank god that I realize this. I am aware. I have a conscience. I am depleted, but still here. The moment this kicked in, I immediately felt my age. Mind, too, that I've been a professional keeper of secrets for 34 years. Thick folders, accordians, and bankers boxes full of them.

Bad Kingdom - Moderat

Brian Jonestown Massacre - Pish

Fred Fortin - Melane

Nick Drake's Cello Song Covered by the Fontaines

Midlake - Head Home

Oiseau - Fred Fortin

Fred Fortin - Grippe [Official version]

Over and over Again (Lost and Found)

Motorama — Livestream / Noonchorus. September 22, 2020

Man In A Shed - A song that reminds me of my buddy, Curtis Caughorn, who lived for a time in a shed

' Cello Song - Nick Drake

Three Hours - Nick Drake

River Man - The Stunning Harmony of Nick Drake

Pixies - All I Think About Now

Gonna Die Alone - Seems peaceful and quiet to me. Quite Naturally the way to check out when my body finally folds up

Psychedelic drugs being used to treat mental illness in East Tennessee

Phantom Thread - This film will be remembered as a classic over and above the classics

Masterfully and entirely novelly Written and directed by P.T. Anderson, this film is absolutely great in every respect. Run the credits. It all bends sharply toward cinematic perfection. DD Lewis, and Vicky Kreips are hynotic. Eleven out of ten, so where's it been for the last seven years? I never understand this temporal gap between the release of great art to the public and my cognition of its exitence. I have a very strong hunch that it has something to do with the marketplace. No problem.

Glass Beams - Full Performance (Live on KEXP)

Safari

Letter to Memphis - Tromp Le Monde

Dope Lemon - Stonecutters

My Pineal Gland, Knuckled Violence, Paternal Pride Arising Eternal, and Robert Frost. (September 17, 2022 through August 17, 2024)

After slapping the shit out of the side of my face, and after I pleaded for another, he delivered immediately, but not in keeping with my request. In lieu thereof, he nailed me right between the goddamn eyes with a left hook, causing a flash-bang in my face, shocked and surprised bones and underlying tissues, and watering eyes. Even greater than the pain was pride's powerful rising, never to recede again, I suspect. In the days that followed, I recognized the love that made my obits and nasal cavities ache with just the right dollop of pain. And in those same days, the violence seemed to coalesce into the area between by two brows, so it wouldn't surprise me at all if all those calcified, rust-henged obstructive, chakrac seals were broken open when his beautiful fist came 'round and tagged me right in my fucking face. But, what's truly sacred is what it broke loose in my beloved aggressor. Exactly 23 months in the making. And let us not forget how his dear mother would have literally expanded outward with pure and perfect maternal pride, and ex-spousal delight, as well. But she wasn't, and in the words of Robert Frost, "that has made all the difference."

Parry the Wind High, Low

Real Estate - Stained Glass

Real Estate - Somebody New (Official Audio)

Younger Than Yesterday

Airdrop

Antifa

Real Estate - Horizon

"Saw it on the wall, 'Motherhood Means Mental Freeze'."

Why Don't Appalachian Women Dance?

I confine this to real Appalachian women who have not enjoyed the swelling experience of attending a college in an urban area because of generational poverty, unintended pregnancies, religious indoctrination, backwardness and ignorance. In narrowing the question, it seems I've answered it.

A Prisoner's Path to Nature (The In-breath is the trailhead)

Even assuming the human "inmate," which is a euphemism for prisoner, is in "administrative segregation," which is a euphemism for solitary confinement, she is not segregated from nature. In fact, one of the most intricate manifestations of nature, a universe unto its self, is fully present at all times -- the human body that shares the stars. It is observable through all of the senses that it has developed -- a self observing manifestation of the whole of itself. The inmate thus observes, through the body itself the diaphram as it moves, the heart as it beats, the central and peripheral nervous system as it fires, the body's capacity to process food and water, its wonderful ability to shed, to regenerate, to resist gravity itself with muscles and bones, and to stand wiithin constant protection by its brilliant sheathing. But most fascinating of all is the singularity with which these functions operate; When the inmate recognizes that, the observatory is constructed within her otherwise closed quarter. She cannot be denied the temporal proximity of this marvelous generation of life so long as it continues to breathe from the surrounding air, which is the life-enabling hallmark of a singular, yet fractal life. This is available through Thich Nhat Hanh's universal in-breath, maybe late at night, while the others rest within their bodies unaware.

Arcade Fire - We Exist (Official Music Video)

Four balls of gravity

Feist - Century (Live on KEXP)

Crooked Dice

Louie c k stands for "causes kancer."

Of the soul sellers and truth tellers. Louie C.K. is one of the worst people on earth, not necessarily because he exposed himself to noncomplict women, but because he folded the shame back into a comeback tour where he exploited his own experience, not to for any redemptive reason, but for cheap laughs that made him and his brand even more unnecessary millions. Please die and ressurrect George Carlin. Louie CK causes cancer. It's perfectly acceptable to hate this stupid mother fucker.

Elephant Revival - "Wildfire" (Original by Mandolin Orange)

Elephant Revival "Remembering a Beginning"

Don't let the Pimps of Materialism sell you a dream home on Mars, or tri...

Elephant Revival - Ancient Sea

Elephant Revival - Cosmic Pulse

I am thankfully old now. Just leave it on the porch, if you don't mind.

Elephant Revival - Echo's Rose. The Zenith of the Two Most Beautiful of all Art Forms - Music and Dance

Beck - Modern Guilt Full Album (Extraordinary Collection)

Donovan - Hurdy Gurdy Man (Official Audio)

Fight Club Soundtrack - The Opening of the Most Honest Film Ever Made

Beck - Orphans

Little girls in leotards and human competition are tools

Tools of capitalism in the aggregate to further divert the attention of the stupid masses from social injustices created by the monster itself. Fact, goddammit.

Eugenics and Planned Parenthood – Margaret Sanger - Forgotten History

The Cure - Primary (Original 12 Inch Mix) (Single A Side, 1981)

Brian Jonestown Massacre - Tombes Oubliées

Viagra Boys - Girls & Boys (From Shrimp Sessions 2)

Wolf Parade - You're Dreaming

Hospitality - Last Words

Hospitality - Monkey

Hospitality - Inauguation

Hospitality - Rockets and Jets

This one is very, very special.

sjogren

Seventeen by Sjogren

The National - Mistaken for Strangers

Hospitality - Last Words

Dandy Warhols

When I Shut My Eyes I can smell the Wild West

This acute drought invites the short shadows of desert life into my Appalachian sentience and such allows my mind to veer off into those desert colors I once saw in the four corners, and the smell of the odd red and those stramge green striations on desert walls of younger western montanas that might resemeble the bones of these ancient Appalachain rises. Rise and fall, my beloved friends. Nevermind the hill and holler billies within this vertical life, dry with summer arid all around makes me inhale the desert and sadly forsee my own mountain rain forests succomb to the same climatic provenance of those western ranges long after I have contributed my own set of bones to their earthworks.

Lou Reed - Endless Cycle

This song, from Reed's masterwork album, New York, forecasted the greatest societal problem since slavery. It's called "Endless Cycle," but the cycle can be slowed to a crawal through widespread postive eugenics programs. What's at stake? Everything.

Asheville - June 29, 2024 - Frank's First Ink Conflated With Appalachian American Ennui

Blackie made sure my rising, which I then paid forward to Frank with unexpected and amazing results by climbing atop his long body, straddling his sleeping chest and arms, and ensured his awakening, as well. We were up early and soon set out. Inkward, onward, and southbound to Asheville. The Amsterdam of the Southern Appalachians. I think we laughed all the way from Morristown to Asheville, if that's even possible. I shared my guts with my best friend, and the hilarity overtook the Toyota interior the entire way down. Iced coffee from the cooled countertop in the Woolworth enabled us to watch it rain on beautifully progressive and high functioning people of all stripes. True to form, Frank cautioned the congregants and artists: "you really can't take him anywhere," and bade the top of the morning to gentle pixie-like Jordan Ata in the afternoon. Gentle Jordan, to whom I entrusted my changeling, enabled my emergent son Forever changed from Forever Tattoo. The color black enabled the others to bulge from muscled armed surroundings. Peanuts, Pepsi, and yes, sadly, a couple of Red Bulls were found to be necessary on no sleep. I, on the other hand, slept long and and nightmarishly well. His was but two hours. The prize? Yet another of the greatest days of our lives. Meanwhile, above Clinch Mountain near Yellow Branch, called, Chinqupin, near War Creek, which empties into the Clinch River, the boy with that plastic abomination flashing red, blue and green in his mouth turned six. I was told "a man gave it to him." It reminds me -- What's to become of the boy amongst the hill and holler billies and the children among whom they affect? I bought the fucked up, garish instrumentality from him for two bucks and took it home and threw it into the cats. Vergil is chasing its flashing lights violently across the floorboards. I've seen this monstrosity unfold before. This happens with a silent frequency within the hollows of Appalachian American Ennui. It's called grooming, and it puts merciless violence in my heart.

Living in the Past (2001 Remaster) - Jethro Tull

Deadcrush

Portishead - Rip Extended

taragalte by OUM

Amyl and the Snifters KEXP Concert

Viagra Boy and Amyl

Viagra Boys - Stockholm, Sweden (Mind Bending)

The Halluci Nation - Burn Your Village To The Ground (Neon Nativez Remix)

7Horse - One Week

7Horse - Carousel Bar

7Horse - 305

7Horse - Swagger

The Smile - Read the Room

7Horse - Low Fuel Drug Run

Llucero, from Memphis - tears don't matter much

David Bowie - Queen Bitch - live 1972 (rare footage / 2018 edit)

'My Generation...' Blindboy Boatclub - The Rubberbandits | The Late Late...

Goodbye Horses

NIN - Only

Sleep Drifter - King Gizzard

Make it wi chu - Queens of the Stone Age

How Soon Now - Johnny Marr (Smith's Cover_

Viagra Boys - 6 Shooter (instrumental) Great

PJ Harvey - Dress

Sonic Youth - Kool Thing

EELS - Novacaine for the Soul

Trisomie - The Last Song

Portishead = The Rip Viddy

Viagra Boys - Troglodyte

Son, please run inside and press like before it's too late. Thanks.

Just Like You - Viagra Boys

Deadcrush - AltJ

Viagra Boys - Punk Rock Loser

Ministry - N.W.O. (New World Order)

Who's Rule of Law?

IDLES: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert

Viagra Boys - Sports

Pixies - Gouge Away (Modified by the Pixies Most Excellent)

The Black Keys - Lonely Boy [Official Music Video]

Viagra Boys - Research Chemicals (Barely beneath the levity lies a very important subject we better listen to, if we're able to discern the message)

7Horse - Way Down South

7Horse - Two Stroke

Elephant Revival - Schism (Tool Cover)

elephant revival - wildfire (Warning: Contains Pedal Steel)

Elephant Revival - Have a Cigar

Elephant Revival - White Rabbit Cover

7Horse - Please Come On Home

Elephant Revival - Sing to the Mountain

Meth Lab Zoso Sticker by 7 Horse

Little Dragon Little Man

A Beloved Version of My Mother - Our Last Day Together

I took my mother to Mount Vernon Restaurant on South Broad Street just south of Chattanooga before her cognitive acuity had completely failed her.  We ate collard greens.  Afterward, we drove up Lookout Mountain, and then on to Hixson to look at our old house on Brynwood Drive.

 En route, I drew a brick house to her attention and confessed that when I was in third grade I coaxed Perry Anne Davis to show me her pussy in its basement.  We shared an immediate and intense belly laugh.

"Greg," she howled, "you just won't do!"

A perfect day in the life. Just us two.

Til Tuesday - Voices Carry - 3/26/1986 - Ritz

BENEE - Green Honda (Unknown Mortal Orchestra Remix) (Official Audio)

Brian Jonestown Massacre - If Love Is The Drug

GLB - Everybody Needs a Little Sanctuary

GLB - Crooked DIce

Come to Mama, She Say -

MSNBC Accidentally Airs The Truth

Neil Young = For the Turnstiles

Neil Young = Pardon My Heart

Led Zeppelin = The Song Remains the Same, Full Album

No link provided.

Neil Young = Hawks and Doves, Full and Perfect Album

No link provided.

IDLES

Neil Young = Dangerbird

Neil Young = Hawks and Doves (Single)

Presidents of the United States - Lump

Jon Hopkins - Open Eye Signal

Boards of Canada - Buckie High

Most excellent. Like velvet balls.

Phish - Bathtub Gin Live Last Week

Thru The Eyes Of Ruby (Remastered 2012) Smashing Pumpkins

Hole - Malibu

Eye - Smashing Pumpkins

Silverchair - Tomorrow (US Version) (Official Video)

War Paint - Common Blue, The Butterfly Song

Smashing Pumpkins - Mayonaise

The Acid - Basic Instinct (Official Video)

Beck - Lost Cause (Version 2) (Official Music Video)

Elinor Wylie - The Eagle and the Mole (Excerpts), Kubla Khan - Xanadu (Excerpts), . . .

In Xanadu did Kubla Khan where Alph the sacred river ran, in caverns measureless to man with roots of sweet and mana dew, live like the velvet mole, burrow underground with roots of trees and stones with rivers at their source and disembodied bones.

Turn Away

Don't Let It Go

Beck - Wave (Audio)

Blackbird Chain

Rage Against The Machine - Guerrilla Radio (Official HD Video)

Beck - Fuckin With My Head (Mountain Dew Rock)

Beck - Girl

moonvampire - Vampire II

IDLES - POP POP POP (Official Video)

DJ Shadow - Nobody Speak feat. Run The Jewels (Official Video)

Beck - Beercan

"Dance In The Street" - Donna The Buffalo (official video)

Viji - White Lighter (Acoustic)

The Toadies - Possum Kingdom (Official Music Video)

cottagecore

Pets

PIXIES - Alec Eiffel (Official Video)

Sonic Youth - Bull In The Heather (Official Music Video)

The Smashing Pumpkins - Zero (Official Music Video)

The Smashing Pumpkins - Rocket (Official Music Video)

Stone Temple Pilots - Plush (Official Music Video)

Stone Temple Pilots - Interstate Love Song (Official Music Video) [HD]

The Smashing Pumpkins - Rhinoceros (Official Music Video)

Incubus - Wish You Were Here

The Smashing Pumpkins - Stand Inside Your Love (Official Music Video)

Pearl Jam - Corduroy (Music Video - Studio Cut)

Insignificance - Pearl Jam

This is one of the most well-constructed jamming pieces of Rock & Roll I've ever heard. Don't know how I missed its emergence.

War on Drugs - An Ocean In Between The Waves

Crestfallen - Smashing Pumpkins

Adult Mom - "Passenger" (Full Album Stream)

Baldur's Gate 3 - OST - "I Want To Live"

Ladies and Gentlemen, Eighteen Minutes of Steven Wilson and Porcupine Tree

When The Lights Come On | IDLES | From The Basement

Ulysses' Triune Climax

Yes. The book is coming to an end. Blazes Boylan has united with Leopold's wife, Molly. Yes. The end is coming. Yes. God, yes.

Warpaint - Common Blue

Santigold - Disparate Youth (Official Music Video)

Alex Serra - Outter Space (Official Videoclip)

Tom Misch & Yussef Dayes - Tidal Wave [Official Video]

Don't Call My Name

Hospitality - Traps and Arrows

Hospitality - I Miss Your Bones (Live on KEXP)

Rat Palace - Look My Way

Hospitality — Rikki Don't Lose That Number (Steely Dan cover)

Hospitality - Eighth Avenue

Hospitality - Going Out (Official Music Video)

Hospitality - I Miss Your Bones (Official Music Video)

Hospitality - Nightingale

The Smile - Under Our Pillows

The Smile - Thin Thing (Official Video)

GREAT G C FOR BANJ0 L/R | Nilüfer Yanya | From The Basement

When The Lights Come On | IDLES | From The Basement

Hips | Warpaint | From The Basement

Champion | Warpaint | From The Basement

The Smile - Teleharmonic

Aphex Twin - Stone In Focus

Radiohead - Weird Fishes - by Tobias Stretch

Aldous Harding - Fixture Picture (Official Video)

Radiohead - The Headmaster Ritual (The Smiths cover)

Filter - Nothing in my hands (Vocal removal)

The Cure - A Forest (live at Pinkpop 2019)

PIXIES - Gouge Away (Exceptional performance)

Keep It Healthy | Warpaint | From The Basement

Chelou - Halfway to Nowhere

Fucked Up - "Paper The House"

IDLES - GIFT HORSE (Official Video)

The Smile - Friend of a Friend

The Smile - Wall Of Eyes